OP, not to change the subject but I mean this with all sincerity, does your campus offer free counseling sessions? If they do, I think you should take advantage. It sounds like you have pretty serious confidence issues possibly stemming from the things other people have said/your long story, and some insecurity when it comes to getting involved as well. I had low self esteem which kept me from getting involved, and talking to someone really helped.
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