Hello everyone. Pref round is over. I got my top two houses Orange and Blueberry so let us get right into it......!!!
The first house I visited was Orange. I am just going to say it now---I cried!!! The girls here seemed like they really were so happy to see me. It felt good. The girl who prefed me seemed so happy to meet me. I later found out she was one of the girls in their skit who I thought was sooooo funny!!! When I found out she was the one I was so excited!! She told me she had heard so much about me. The conversation flowed so well as it always has in this house. I felt so at home. She read the notes to me that the girls who talked to me during other sets wrote about me and they were so sweet. They remembered specific things about me which felt awesome. The ceremony was so beautiful!! Before we came out of the house they called us in one by one and said something really nice about us. I left this house feeling great. Another girl who had talked to me on skit day waved to me. It just felt so right and so good being here. I left this house feeling completely in love and a little confused...
I had been really enjoying this house all through out rush, but what about Blueberry? The girls were also so sweet! I was introduced to the President AND the Philanthropic Chair!! What would happen after I attended their pref party? Would it make or break my decision? I fell so in love with Orange but a piece of me was hoping Blueberry would win me over 10000 times more...
I got to Blueberry and was paired with a girl I had not yet spoken to. She reminded me of the girl who introduced me to the President and Philanthropic Chair. Super sweet but kind of quite. She did not keep the conversation going as much as all of the girls did in Orange. It seemed that everyone I had talked to in Orange I clicked with but by this time in Blueberry I was starting to wonder if I actually had a connection with them, not just that they were sweet and nice. I began to realize my pref girl in Blueberry and I were not talking like the girl and I in Orange did. She read me the notes but they did not seem as personal and as genuine. She told me how excited she was for me but that seemed to be all we could talk about. I still loved this house though and I left feeling so torn. I did not cry at their pref ceremony either.
I loved both of these houses so much. But was I leaning towards Blueberry for the wrong reasons? I called my mom. She did the best she could to help but was trying not to pick for me. At the end of the long second phone call she told me that when I called her after Orange she was confused when I called her after Blueberry because it did not seem the same as I was after Orange.
I then began to realize that I was HOPING to love Blueberry. I LOVED their house, their symbol, their colors, but could I be 100% myself around the girls? I then thought about how I felt and realized that I was holding back my personality when talking to the last few girls. They were so much more quite and mellow than me. This not a bad thing, but I was worried about my potential to build a strong bond with the girls in the house because of this... and for that I made one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make...
The order I placed my rankings in was
1. Orange
2. Blueberry
This was such a tough decision. Either way I placed my order I would have been sad. I love both houses so much but I had to be real with myself here. I wanted to be in Blueberry because I liked the idea of being in the house. I wanted to be in Orange because I loved the girls in the house. I'm sure that if Blueberry is who I'm given a bid to I will adjust well and be perfectly fine, but that connection with the girls just is not there yet. I almost changed the order on my pref order while waiting in line to placed my selections, but I couldn't bring myself to it. I'm sad... I'm sad because I love both houses so much and hope I made the correct decision. If either house shows up on my bid card a part of me will be happy and a part of me will be sad... I hope whatever fate may bring is what is meant to be....
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