Praying, Belle! Depression is a scary road, but it sounds like you are aware. Get help before you start spiraling. I've been on that path. You are NOT alone.
AGDee-- he's not ignoring it, luckily. But he's not taking it nearly as seriously as I am. I also know his circulation in general is bad, particularly in his feet. They are always ice cold. Hopefully we'll figure something out quickly!
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“All his life he tried to be a good person. Many times, however, he failed.
For after all, he was only human. He wasn't a dog.”
― Charles M. Schultz
Warning: The above post may be dripping in sarcasm and full of smartassedness.