[amanda6035]

My new members think I'm the bomb, thank you very much. The thing that worries me, is that these new members dont have the exposure to the alumnae and advisors like I did, or our current president, since we were still "babies" back then. And even when elections roll around, the only ones who are "probably" going to develop a good relationship with the advisors are those on exec.

I'm suffering hard core from not only senior-itis, but colony member syndrome. I'm terrified of graduating. I'm terrified that I've done so much, picked up so much slack for things that weren't necessarily my job, (but then again whose job was it - for example, who's supposed to place T-shirt orders? I've always done it cause I'm the one with the check book!) that if someone doesnt come step up to the plate, that what I've worked so hard for is suddenly going to fall to hell. I'm not trying to sound snooty, or stuck up, so I really dont need any of the cattier members of GC coming in here and blasting me for these concerns - because that's all they are - are concerns. I just....I dont want my chapter to fall to pieces. And I know that's colony member anxiety. I wish I knew how to get over it.

Should be interesting when elections results come out. At least I know that this year I wont have to the heartbreak from last year. One of my last official duties to my chapter - I am on NomCom. No surprises.

But yeah - totally off track......then again, I cant really say anything else about the situation I was referring to above. I think they'll be just fine...