I wanted to be in Pi Phi ever since the summer before school started because I talked to an active from an Illinois chapter. Well, recruitment was after Christmas break and I narrowed it down to AXO and Pi Phi and on Pref night I was talking to some girl at Pi Phi about our families. This was a point in my life when I started remembering a lot of painful memories and (finally) putting two and two together. So I started talking about how my brother was when I was little (I guess it was good I was comfortable talking about this to strangers... maybe I just needed to get it out to anyone, no matter who) but in all my rage about one stupid/funny incident I called my brother a dick and all of a sudden I felt so out of place. I never found out if they were going to offer me a bid but because I went to AXO and felt so at home there. I'm glad I ended up where I did, but I still wonder how bad of an impression I made on that active.
